Disgusting matter - No. 1

Different people has different matter that trigger their irritation. As for me I have one particular matter that really damn annoyed and disgusted. Again and again I have the freak "accident" to meet such kind of insensitive people as if their are so ignorant.

They simply do not k now that not everybody take up mandarin in school. We may be Chinese in body but that doesn't mean all Chinese understand Mandarin. They are so many sales people approach in mandarin thinking that I shall be able to understand what they are trying to say. Recently only I met one sales personnel asked me in mandarin which I guess must be asking me to try his products or what not, I told him plainly, "Eh, do you guys assume all chinese understand mandarin. You thought here is the country of China er?.. Or have forgotten this is Malaysia. How come you do not want to ask in either English or Bahasa Malaysia language.. " So irritating. Like that how can you create a positive vibes for me to listen further to you whatever you want to promote. At least have the courtesy to speak in the local dialect. They react as if Mandarin language is so great that everybody should understand. Not all Chinese take up Mandarin in school.

I think their superior has not trained them enough the tactics to begin conversation with people. Simply begins a foreign language to potential customers. So oblivious to the fact that not all Chinese understand mandarin. Get out of my way.

The "Closeness" and Intensity" of a relationship

Someone asked me how I would define a relationship as very close and intense. This remind me so much of my colleagues who phone their spouse so frequently. Within such a short period of time from stepping out from the house, still talk again and each day called so many times. So I guess a relationship as close & intense when one has so much to talk and exchange about. Or it could be if the "couple" as being seen going out together very often, play together, work together, eat together and sleep together. Some old people nicknamed this similar to "siamese twin".

Certainly I have missed two more crucial yardstick until someone pointed that to me. They are;

1. disclosing and exchange of all bank and cash balances. This is would be much more sensitive than being physically nude, haha.

2. or maybe without missing to inform the other parties as such mundane activities such as shifting of furniture, buying of tissue-paper.

My friend sounds correct, doesn't he?. What do you think?

To believe or not to believe

I called up my contractor regarding my pending to be repaired water tank. He told me actually he had assigned his supervisor to repair for me, however his supervisor fell down. He is injured. Although I have doubts, I replied among a few things like "Then what about some other worker, or repair for me after he has healed, after CNY". Besides i also asked if he has broken any limbs, etc. politely.

I have his supervisor's telephone number. If i want to verify i can, but i hold back for a few reasons. No need to be so much a rush as it is already near festive season now. I can't called another contractor that easy now.

In my mind i m really wondering if he is making up excuses or not. Just like people normally said he is too busy to see any movies if he or she does not his/her dates.

Time will tell.

A worrying experience

The steering of my car seems to getting heavier. I am getting scared and worried. Is it anything wrong with my car. I normally do the servicing according to the schedule mileage. It is night time now. Most shops are closed. As i was driving I was wishing and hoping nothing will be going to go amiss. I tried to remain calm. With divine's help I was able to reached home safely. It must have been divine's help that enable me to drag for nearly 9 km safely, now thinking back.

Upon reaching home I had forgotten about the whole event. I water my plants as usual. Something caught my attention through instinct. I bent down to look at my car's tyre. My guess was right, my car tyre is punctured. What a lousy day.

Waiting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Waiting is always a heartache. Be it waiting for friends to go out with, waiting for school exam results, job interview, or recovering from illness just to name a few. Waiting is damn stressful.

Lately I have no mood to update my blog. This is partly because I no longer enjoy writing and partly because I am now very anxious waiting for a contractor to come to repair my bathroom water tank. I have contacted 4 vendors for the repair job.
Contractor A quote me RM X
Contractor B quote me RM1.6X
Contractor C quote me RM2X
Contractor D quote me RM X but with a more refine materials than contractor A.
It will take 2 to 3 days job.

Naturally now i am eagerly waiting for contractor D to come. The sooner the better to get the problem settled. However he told me he had to put me on waiting list first because he has earlier work to rush up. (and also he charge me just to cover his expenses only, he said so) . Wish that he is sincere in this aspect. I have tested his reasonable pricing in some other works. Average workmanship too. Until the job is done will i continue my blog again.

I love my bath tank a great deal. I do not want to dismantle and replace it with a smaller acrylic tub.

Rambling on a Sunday night

Today I attended a course the topic of which is "How to handle difficult person". I am too lazy to regurgitate the facts. Let me test and experience it before I share them. This is because in the past I have read lots of books with such titles before and none of them are effective.

Most of the time I encounter people so eager to belittle, unfairly criticise, humiliate and gave me sarcastic remarks. I am a little surprise I do not receive negative comments from my topic on "Why I hate babies". If it were on person to person level, people will straight instantly attack me, "Why hate babies, what harm have babies done to anyone?". As it is in the blog, nobody bother to attack me.

A while ago, i read from the NST online that 80,000 Malaysian may be infected with H1N1. This figure is a very alarming and scaring. Could this be the beginning sympton of human extinction. Time shall tell.

On the Star online earthquake rock Sumatra, tremor felt in KL and Penang. So far in my life I have never felt any tremor or shake due to earthquake even during Tsunami 2005 times. My spiritual teacher explained me that I was sort of "protected" from unnecessary "threat"

Fear of Disease

My fear of the current H1N1 has led me to eat more fruits especially coconut water. In my small town where I reside I heard that there are 2 hospital staff died today. Many people are wearing mask. I cannot blog long tonight because the light in my room has blow out.

Babies and why I hate them

OMG, i may not agree with many people. I hate babies.

1. They are little devils grows up to be a monster.
2. They are just like hypocrites, pretending to be this, to be that.
3. Some are even very bossy just like real bosses.
4. Some are so demanding and so difficult to pleased.
5. When they shit, it mess up everywhere and dirty the hands that clean it.
6. They are very irritating with their hands simply take/grab and spoilt people's things.
7. They are nuisance in the sense that so heavy to carry around.
8. They just like little mammals, the by product of one couple's vices.
9. Some are so ugly to look at especially those with small tilted eyes and flat face. The most disgusting ones are the obesity one. URG!!
10. Each time whenever I see them i feel like want to wallop and squeeze them to death.

Well, can't help so, not everybody likes the same things. Everybody's taste is different. I prefer male children to female children anyway.

Online diary - 8/8/09

Doubts, suspicion, discontent, dishearten, tiredness, confusion and stress are the norm of the days. Tell me, if there is anyone who is not feeling any one of the eight adjectives. I have all the eight types of those feeling to the extent that I cannot update my blog daily.

Theoretically it is very easy to talk about, "Not to be serious, let go, forget the past, bla , bla, etc." These are bullshits. It is never easy to disregard our feelings let alone eliminate or get rid out those feelings. Meditation teachers claim meditation can assist in this aspect. I am in doubt now, hehe. Likewise any motivational speakers can give you list of ideas and advices and they are all not easy to practise.

Two of my married friends confess that they prefer not get married, cos they are not very satisfy with their married life. One of them is due to financial reasons, another is because of jealousy between the spouse and his family.

A few days ago I was shouted angrily by another so called friend.

Me say: " Wow these few days you look very radiant, heard that a relationship is blooming"

Troy say (pseudonym of course) : "You shut up la, don't spread anything, don't tell anyone. See I never bother with anyone affairs".

Me say : "Ok, ok, i don't see nor know anything,"

What a fucking friend, never give me face completely, scolded me like hell. I was only joking. The truth is that this married man is seen sitting very closely, touching another lady who is also married at a restaurant. They are both married yet continue to have affair secretly.

Somebody saw it, and informed me. What a scandal. Dare to indulge, yet scared people comment. No balls and unreasonable man. Well this is typical example of a man in conflict with his inner self. The world has turned very dirty in all aspect.

Rambling on the road

On my way home this evening, the traffic was very heavy although it is Tuesday and not a public holiday. The road was bloody jam. Even within such a short distance of about 3 km I have to wait in the jam for nearly 1 hour. In the car my mind goes wandering, should I be thinking, "Wah, I must be lucky staying in a prosperous country, surrounded by all so many vehicles. Very few people are walking on the road. Bicycles are not seen too. Unlike in some other countries eg India where the road is less filled with such big new cars". Oh, no it is not easy to bluff myself, the truth is that I am a poor person surrounded by rich people everywhere along the road. The road was so pack. The population keep increasing. Will the world one day be over populated?. How is the end time like? What and how it will be like say in another hundred years time? The prediction of the so-called "End of the world" keep on dragging and postponing. In my childhood time most of the road in this same town was normally quiet and relax. Those were the days.

Maid's Ban - So what

Talking about maid ban, I was thinking if I ever can afford to hire maid, if my salary were RM20K per month, I will still not be hiring maid. The reasons are :

1. I do not feel safe with any person around me. It is a very high risk. I have read of cases where the maid murder the employer once she got to irritated with the employer. One never knows if they may not like us through our behaviour or mannerism. A lot of them also mix urine in their boss's beverages. Some burn dried menstruates and let their employer to eat it through cooking in the food. I don't trust them to prepare meals for me. I always remember the saying, "It is much easier to avoid external 'ghost' than internal 'ghost' which stays around you".

2. There are cases where they inform their so-called boyfriends of our time table and schedule and assist in robbery and theft.

3. Some elope away with their boyfriends after a while . This is not too bad if they had not also gone off with our cash or jewellery.

4. Some hit the very weak elderly while the younger sons or daughters are out for work. The maid hit the elderly as the way to vent out their boredom and some simply because of jealousy, laziness and unreasonableness.

5. I think majority have seen before, the video where the maid and hit kicked the toddler as if the toddler is a ball.

6. I also heard of cases where they don't rinse properly the utensils, clothes. I cannot stand those lackadaisical attitude.

So don't you think it will be much stress free without a maid then with a maid. What's wrong with a little bit messy in our place. We can clean it as and when we have the mood and time.

I just talk for the sake of updating my blog tonight. However they are not without sincerity from my heart.

Probable penis evolution and its consequences

Tonight is cooling. As I have nothing much to do, my mind keeps wondering. This time I am thinking of the last few days news of the young boy without penis. I have no intention of making a joke out of him. Never anything like this.

Just wondering, if in future there are any more cases such as this without penis, then possibly this is man's natural evolution. When such kids grow up, they will not have any sex intercourse the normal way. Penis becomes extinct. Then there will be no more sex intercourse. Copulation will be the thing of the past. Fucking becomes history. No more xxxxx websites. Prostitutes also need to change profession. Aids, HIV, herpes, syphilis etc stop to spread. Babies at that time possibly born through other non vice methods. Haha, this is just my fucking thought for tonight, weird imagination for tonight. Good night laugh to you all.

Lesson on 1/6/09

I have been informed of "If I keep the weaknesses of others in my thought, they soon become part of me".

Applying this in my life i have to forget about those weaknesses of all my unbecoming friends/acquaintances. Let go. Trying to let go. I was advised to forgive them so that I can forget those unpleasant events. Apart from the virtue, forgiving is an art. Mentally we need to follow this art and master it for conquering stress. I forgive those persons who have troubled me and put me in to difficult situations.

I am aware that to become disturbed and angry is harmful to my health.

I have been cheated

Bought a new smaller pressure cooker of 3 liter today. My existing one which I bought last year 6 lit is too big for me. Most of the utensils eg rice cookers, slow cooker, frying pans, I have 2 sets. 1 big size one small size. Smaller is easier to clean and also lighter for me.

Glad that I have cooked the sweet peanut soup dessert within 15 mins only with pressure cooker. I follow the recipes from Lily's Wai Seng Hong website.

What had upset me is that when I purchase the pressure cooker, I went to 1st shop say Shop A, I bought it here because my friend said she bought it here. After I bought and paid, when I went to another shop Shop B which is situated another 2 mins walking distance away , the price is RM60/- cheaper with same same brand and size. Hiya, if only i had not been lazy I will not have to lose RM60/-. If only I have not follow my friend's words. No matter how careful I am, normally checking and comparing and evaluating. Today I just missed 1 step I have been cheated. I do not like to waste money unnecessarily. As I am not happy today therefore I am very sleepy . Whatever I am down I am very sleepy. My eyes are drooping now. Only time can heals my "wound". No "syiok". Only time can makes me forget it.

Example of Irritation

Irritation comes in many forms and sometimes continuosly.

1. Very fed up with the Maxis/Hotlink operators who are unable to assist me to switch my plan to ExtraSave. Called 3 of them none has the knowledge. The last one told me the plan start with effect from 21/4/09. My present plan is the old expensive plan which I want to change to another cheaper plan. I have let it pass by for some time because I seldom call.
2. On my way to toilet I step on a cockcroach. Then I will have to wipe the place and also washed my feet. It is very smelly. What a "bull shit" coincident. Sometimes when I want to catch it , it ran so fast away. To nite I step on it accidentally.

Learn to count my blessings

Nowadays everybody is staying positive and count their blessing. Whatever is realistically bad and sour also bluff as sweet and fresh. Thus I have to follow suit. First I should be thankful that I am healthy, and disease free. Every parts of my body is functioning normal. Personally I am not answerable to anyone, neither am i responsible for anyone. I have the full authority to be charge of my life the way I want it to be. Inside the house I am the queen. During busy days I have the authority to let loose and simply leave my unfolded dresses all over the chair. I am also debt free. I have no loan. I pay my credit cards outstanding in full every months since the first month I used credit card nearly ten years ago. People said one cannot stay alive without love. In my case I should have said, what I never have I never miss. And I am still alive writing this blog tonight without ever receiving any love. Strange but true.

Forever Discontend

I draw the conclusion to night that everybody including myself are discontent with life. (at least a few times in our life time). There is nothing in life we can be contend for a long period of time eg.

When I was young I wished my parents had given me more freedom.

At times we wished to be more understood , more appreciative by our fellow friends , colleagues and family members, or maybe to have a more loving and considerate spouse, or maybe wished that our love is reciprocate by our sweet heart, our grand child, our sons, daughters, etc.

Many times I wished I were rich so that I can afford to travel more, eat more good food, buy more advanced products.

Haven't anyone wished before to have experience something that was described in love novels. Eg. to watch the view of sunset together with our loved one at the beach. Sitting side by side on the soft sand leaning against a tree. Talking non stop till mid night, with intervals of looking and staring at the face of our loved one. Give a loving kiss on the cheek here and there. Stay over night at the beach cuddling each other and waking up to watch the sun rise again.

Life is a bull shit. If I were asked permission whether to be reborn or not , I would have really take time to reconsider and contemplate deeply. Most probably impose/offer conditions too.

Now only come across my mind, I have a few things to be appreciative .

1. So thankful that i was not born in Israel or Palestine countries as they are having war now.

2. Glad that I was not born in some poor Africa countries too, or else i will be starving.

3. Happy to say that I am healthy enough to blog tonite and not sick in any hospitals or encounter any natural calamities as in some states. eg flooding in Sarawak.

Is this pre-destined, Law of karma or what, I really wonder.

What the big fuss of watching xxxx or the blue

There are a few matters in life that I cannot completely understand. One of them is people regard watching X-rated movies as if it is something to be scorned, disrespectful. Watching blue movies by itself is not a sin or improper. It depends on the intention of the viewer. Some regard watching xxx as if a taboo.

I have known a few people who had watched xxx and they have not involved in any sexual activity with any partner. (Please take note. I do not imply me, hehe.)

Looking at the educational aspect of the movie, it helps one to understand better what has been going on around inside the closed room of married couples. Majority people married for sex aren't they? especially the men. So isn't this is just a view of the action being taking place among couples. Presently as the paper also publishes people are involved in sex party, and sex between the same gender. It is a lot more healthy to watch the blue movie than to participate. One save oneself from potential HIV, herpes or even any unwanted pregnancies. Lots of energy are wasted in this activity.

Normally the interest in watching xxx movie will not last permanently. After seeing for a period of time, one will get bored with it. This too is just another type of movie and another phase of time.

If one were to say that one can imitate the act through watching, that I disagree. Movie alone doesn't so easily influence us. This is depending on the person's own character and attitude.