Saturday, August 18, 2012

Cell Group (CG)

I start going to CG since Feb 2012 somewhere near the Chinese New Year season.  We have our CG every week except for first week of the month.  As at todate I have not missed any of them

My friends are asking me if I will like to open my place for CG or not.  Am still considering because inside my old house, I do not installed air-condition and I am wondering if it may be too warm for them.  If the attendance is 100% there might be around 21  persons.    I don't really mind much other criterias like my place is  the least beautiful compared to theirs.   So far I have been to total  8 (eight) houses.  Another 2 still I haven't been, schedule to be in the next few months.  The venue of the place  are by rotation subject to the host's convenience.  All of them are big new houses - 3 storeys mostly, bungalow and 1 new condominium.  Wow.   They really have much blessings from God.

We have many choices of food after the praying and discussions.  Each of us bring our food to exchange liken pot luck based on a duty schedule.

Last night the host prepare laksa to treat us all.  Spicy laksa which I ate one bowl.  This one is also a 3 storey house with electric circuit camera and alarm system installed.

Not that I really enjoy in the CG, somehow these open my eyes and ears to new knowledge.  Something I wouldn't know from my old faith.

As at todate not only I have no regret accepting Christ, I regret I have not accepted Christ earlier.  The Bible alone gives so much knowledge.

Unfortunately,  somehow the questions marks are, there are still lots of mysteries which I am unable to comprehend in life.  Mysteries and intense competition /rivalries in almost every sphere of life

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Missing something .......

Some people like me for example has more emotion than the average people.  No matter  how much I was not happy in that place and that time,  I still do miss it sometimes when I think over it.  Such as my old working place.   Only time may help me to have this sort of feelings fade and  gone or maybe until I have a new working place.  Gone are the days I stayed back for dinner at the coffee house and chat with colleagues.   We talked about topic outside work.

When I visited them it sorts of brings me some memories though it was not a completely happiest one.  A place that one time of my life I had spend with.  This doesn't only applies to work place. 

When I stepped to the old school I also have that similar feelings.  I can feel that time has transform so many people so many events.  The canteen looked so big in size compared to now though it is remained the same size physically.  I got to run like hell to reach the canteen.  And now we are all old. 

The mystery of life is that I normally prefer what was over compared to the future. I love the past more than the future.  Not sure whether this applies to everybody or not.

Can't  help looking back and wondering again, "Why not a happier ending?"

Surviving through hard times - comparison

My mind is never void.  It is very active, never ending thinking and wondering all sorts aspects of live.  One of the many thinking I am wondering is which of these lossess are most sad.

1. The lost of a husband through being  taken away by other woman  i.e divorces, or maybe by death  through sickness or accident.

2.  The lost of a job 

3.  The lost of a son, through sudden death, accident

4.  The lost of a wife , either by following another man or maybe death.

5.  The lost of huge amount  money  through scam investment.

6.  The lost of boy-friend /girl-friend through a switch of the heart by the person.

How much we grief about any of them are based on how much we place importance of any of  them

Those criterias are the amount of importance we place on them, the amount of love, the amount of affinity we have towards the object of lost.  To one woman she may place a career  her major importance  far more crucial than the lost of a son.  A son or child can be borned again if she is still within the fertile age. 

Lost of job has a lot to discuss  A normal job with a fair  wage pay for a fair wage job.  In most cases people do not like to resign unless in extreme situation where the person is asked to leave either directly or indirectly.  Some will advise that "well it is only  a job,  maybe it is a blessing in disguise when the person found a new opportunity or new talent in their future job".  Or maybe time to retire for good to rest happily ever after.  This  will depend on the financial standing on the person, the economic  and social situation.   In some instances it could be the worry of the next meal, then this will be worse or equal to the lost of a member of a family.  Life is normally tough.

The lost of a husband may be found again by replacing someone better in termsn of more  caring and more wealthy.   On the other hand she may be happier too if the husband is a sadist or is good for nothing chap always finding fault at home. Or possibly she too has a secret boy-friend behind her husband.  These too are all mysteries of life.

However to another person, their family is the first priority, the lost of a husband or son is almost the end of her life.  It may takes years for heal to recover her grief.  This is more so if she really loves her husband so much and has no intention of living alone and has no potential to find someone else.

So it is all arbitrary.  Different people feel  differently.   The dept of the feelings is not easy to quanitfied.  Like the case of lost of money through scam investment.  This too depends on the amount  and also the remainder money that that person still has on hand  and the amount of risk he/she willing to take. 

All in all, they are all loses in various types and down moment of one's life. 

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Advices from past generation

I want to document a few advices that I have read and also been informed by people.  Few core advices from the olden days chinese are :

1.  We must never trust anyone, including your loving wife, your respected husband, (reasons could be infidelities etc), your old serving servant (reasons, unexplainable threat, spies) , sons, daughters  that may appear to look like filial externally,  (more so when you are their soure of income) your siblings, parents and the list goes i.e.  friends, bosses, co-workers, business associates and obviously some further distance away with no relations. eg suppliers, customers,  rivalries, doctrines teachers  and  all others  that I missed out. 

I think this goes without much difficulty because we normally do not disclose all our information to the same person completely. 

2.  We never spent all our money that we earn.  A certain portion has to be save for rainy days.  Because most of the time when we are in hard times, our friends and relatives will tend to be busy and have no time to connect with you for fear of you borrowing money from them.

3.  Never regret or feel sorry for whatever bad events that may occur to you, because whatever has happened has to be happened as it is written in the book of God. 

4.  Gambling is addictives,  either you have won or you lose the game.  Possibly more addicted if one has won. Eventually you will lose more than you won.

5.  Only lend money to people  to the extent you are afford to lose  because chances are that you will never get back your money.  This also applies even if you go through legal proceedings.

6.  Take care of your well being as much as you can through proper diet, proper ethical discpline, proper rest and learning to let go of anger and hatred.  The reasons is that once you are ill and sick, you will be suffering more than when you are poor financially.  Besides medical cost are exorbitant high these days.

7.  Our finite mind is unable to understanding everything by intellectual rationing.  Even scriptures and religions are unable to explain everything rationally.  Therefore most of the time we just got to close one eye or close one ear to our surrounding, less  we  will be feel more disappointed, resentful and upset.

8. Life is meant not to be taken extremely serious.  We do not really knows what will happen say tomorrow, next week   or in the future.

So enjoy it while it lasts.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

1st Aug 2012

Today mark the beginning of a new chaper of my life.  I shall be very busy cracking and using my brain now.  Studying is healthy to the brain and is a brain exercise.  Life is pretty boring after so many years of routine.

How I wish i know the future so that i can be better prepare to plan accordingly.  Life got to goes on.   It is a busy day for me today, running errand to Kedai Telekom, and a few places.  Hot weather too,  too warm that I fall asleep in the afternoon.

Will see how then.  With my effort and blessings hopefully i may smile again one day in the future