Life is determined by

I learnt a very interesting lesson today in my spiritual class. Our life is determined by the following according to the priority
1. Destiny
2. Virtue you have practised or have not practise in your last life
3. Feng shui - eg. the five element of nature, being water, fire, air, ether, earth.
4. Luck
5. Knowledge/Skill

It cannot be more true than this. This also explains why the good and innocent sometimes suffer while the cunning and wicked flourish. If any person had practise too much a negative virtue (wrong doing) in his or her past life, no amount of feng shui and knowledge can help him or her. Knowledge also unable to help much. Debts have to be returned. If you hit the ball, the ball will bounce back - Newtons's Law works.

So the number two in priority "good virtue in past life" really determines large portion of the destiny. If I have not practise enough virtue in my past life all principles of life eg the practise of Law of Attraction is unable to work too. God is also unable to help. Meditation only helps the sufferer to be able to more able to cope the difficult situation.

This is by itself sounds so logical based on my observations and experiences.

There are plenty of examples I can give you. Eg. some people do not need to work hard to achieve high status in life with abundant of money. Some slog like hell yet so poor and always never successful.

Some become rich by compromising their integrity and virtue and later get diseases. Some baby born with funny diseases, etc.

Any natural calamity like the flood or earthquake happens accurately and never by chance.

By having this knowledge, i am confident i will have a better life in my next rebirth, after i have repayed my debts by suffering in my this present life.

Joke For Tonight

A friend was telling me that many years, when he was young, he was hired to despatch. The manager asked him to deliver cheque to a certain company. He keep the check inside his shirt's pocket. Somehow for the reasons that the wind could be blowing too strong. He was riding a bike. The wind blew off the cheque. Upon returning to the office he was reprimanded like hell. He was criticised severely because of the losing the cheque and the consequences of having to call up the bank to cancel the said cheque. Based on this reason he was transferred to another department.

I didn't mean to laugh at him. The thought that the wind can really blew off the cheque really makes me laugh hard. It is so humorous and funny. I wonder whether you may feel the same as me or not. Haha. It really makes me laugh in this stressing moment of my life.

My opinion regarding facebook's games

I started playing facebook online game, Pet Society, Restaurant City just to name a few since Aug 2009. It was fun initially. Most things are fun initially. However as they have no "game over" or a very too long continuous game it becomes very stressful and tiring. I have to sacrifice sleeping time, my original hobbies and many useful meaningful work to achieve the target such as trophies or buying latest furnitures. Unlike physical game like badminton, games of cards where they game over is within a short period of time. This facebook online game is never ending. Nowadays I have lose interest in it after being charmed by them for 4 months. Four wasted months. 120 wasted days.

It takes 4 months to "wake" me up. Wished that it was shorter. Wished that I was more rational earlier, eg to plant something that i can eat physically, bake something that i can really taste, selling something that i can really spend in real monetary value. Virtual are not meaningful.

Now I am reverting back to my original hobbies of reading blogs, gardening, thinking, sleeping and maybe on other more meaningful jobs such as to improve myself in my spiritual journey.

A worrying experience

The steering of my car seems to getting heavier. I am getting scared and worried. Is it anything wrong with my car. I normally do the servicing according to the schedule mileage. It is night time now. Most shops are closed. As i was driving I was wishing and hoping nothing will be going to go amiss. I tried to remain calm. With divine's help I was able to reached home safely. It must have been divine's help that enable me to drag for nearly 9 km safely, now thinking back.

Upon reaching home I had forgotten about the whole event. I water my plants as usual. Something caught my attention through instinct. I bent down to look at my car's tyre. My guess was right, my car tyre is punctured. What a lousy day.

Waiting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Waiting is always a heartache. Be it waiting for friends to go out with, waiting for school exam results, job interview, or recovering from illness just to name a few. Waiting is damn stressful.

Lately I have no mood to update my blog. This is partly because I no longer enjoy writing and partly because I am now very anxious waiting for a contractor to come to repair my bathroom water tank. I have contacted 4 vendors for the repair job.
Contractor A quote me RM X
Contractor B quote me RM1.6X
Contractor C quote me RM2X
Contractor D quote me RM X but with a more refine materials than contractor A.
It will take 2 to 3 days job.

Naturally now i am eagerly waiting for contractor D to come. The sooner the better to get the problem settled. However he told me he had to put me on waiting list first because he has earlier work to rush up. (and also he charge me just to cover his expenses only, he said so) . Wish that he is sincere in this aspect. I have tested his reasonable pricing in some other works. Average workmanship too. Until the job is done will i continue my blog again.

I love my bath tank a great deal. I do not want to dismantle and replace it with a smaller acrylic tub.

Does love at first sight still exist.

Ever wonder does love at first sight still occur or exist at this era. Ya, it happen to me just at a spur of the moment. However, it is not love for bodily beings or animals. It is my attraction or so called love at first sight on this piece of wood carving. I like to see the design of the carving a lot. Therefore I bought it at first sight without comparing and thinking any further. And luckily for me the next day when i compare it with other shop, still my this design is still the most pleasing to look at. I don't feel bored staring at it. What do u think?

Moon cake

Glad to say that I have successfully tried to bake moon cake. I made it from frying the paste till baking. Of course I knew there are ready made paste sold in the shop. That I am not so interested. I want to do it the whole from the scratch from soaking beans till baking the molded cake.

I will not be writing the recipes because there are already many blogs writting about mooncake.

Baking bread made easy

This is the fastest method to made bread. It does not need to manually knead and wait for it to prove. What is needed is that you dump in all the required ingredients into the bread maker.

Ingredients
320 g bread flour
25 g sugar
3/4 tsp salt
1/2 tbsp milk powder
1/8 tsp cinnamon powder (optional)
2 tsp instant yeast
1 egg
145 ml cold water
25 g butter
80 g raisins
20 gm melon seeds (optional)

Bread ready in approx 3 hrs time. Slice it when it is no longer hot with sharp knife. Suggested serve with serikaya.

Serikaya made easy

Serikaya has always been my all time favorite. As it is never easy to cook serikaya the traditional way since then I have stopped making my own serikaya. One has to stir and stand by the stove nearly hours to make serikaya the traditonal way. Today I cook it by using breadmaker.
Ingredients.
2/3 cup of sugar (1 cup will be more ideal for those not health conscious)
1 cup of egg (5 eggs)
1 cup of santan
12 - 15 leaves of pandan

Whisk the egg with the sugar, pour all the ingredients into the basket of the breadmaker. Press the jam function program button. The kaya will be ready in the next 1 hr and 5 mins. Never mind if it may looks a little bit like scramble egg. When it is luke warm, transfer the kaya into the blender and blend till smooth.

It is so fragrance. The smell of genuine home made kaya is totally different from the shelf ready made kaya at the supermarket.

The cost are :
Eggs - RM 1.50
Sugar - Abt RM0.50
Santan - RM2.00
Pandan - free (home grown)
Total cost RM4.00

If I were to buy from the wet market, this serikaya are sold at RM3.00/plastic cup . I can have about 3 cups - worth RM9.00. This is a saving of aprrox RM5.00 or in other words the RM5.00 is for labour cost.

Sources and idea of this breadmaker made kaya are from :
http://thelazychef.wordpress.com/2006/09/02/nonya-kaya/ and

http://www.agnestan.net/2009/05/07/kaya-from-a-bread-machine

Many thanks to the authors for generously shared their ideas of cooking.

Full Bloom

This plant was planted by me about 5 years ago. It has a purplish blue colour. The whole plant is taller than me. I guess it to be about 6 feet height. The plant is now growing wild and sturdy.

My Virtual Pet

I have been absence nearly for 10 days. The reason is because I am now hooked and addicted to my virtual pet in the Pet society online game in the facebook. Earlier when my friends asked me to join them I was very reluctant to play. After a period of calling and inviting from them I relent. Seems that I am now much more excited than them.

Basically the game is such that you accumulate coins when your pet visit your friends, play a few games such as skipping rope, racing, hitting baseball, fishing etc. From the coins one collected, you are allowed to create your virtual dream home from one room to many rooms bungalow with back and front garden. It allows you to purchase variety of furnitures according to your creativity and design. You then decorate and arrange as to your preference.

I admire the person that create this online. It really simulate real life situation. Example, if you plants vegetables, upon harvest you may sell them if you like. You can change the dressing of your pet too. Very interesting and fun. On my first few days log in this game, I played 3 to 4 hours non-stop. When my friends see me so absorbed in this game, they told, "There I told you so, very interesting one".

True, if you haven't play this game, try log in Facebook and join me play Pet society. Please add me as your friend because each each visit is paid 30 coins.

Hungry Ghost Festival

Today mark the first day of "Hungry Ghost Month" according to the Chinese Lunar Calender, being the 7th month. Many years ago there are many people praying near the roadside on the first, middle and the last day of the Ghost Festival. The reasons or purpose being to seek blessing from the ghost, the wandering homeless spirits and all sorts of evil spirits. A "kow taw" to them with jossticks, hell notes and fruits and food too. These days these rituals are still carried out by some. I can feel that it is lesser now compared to say 20 years ago where nearly all houses after the sunset all family members come out to pray at the road side. Traditions are traditions.

Some superstitious say that during these "Ghost Month" many death, accidents and illnesses may occur. Well, beliefs are beliefs, there is no point in either defending or denying them. Be it let it be.

Rambling on a Sunday night

Today I attended a course the topic of which is "How to handle difficult person". I am too lazy to regurgitate the facts. Let me test and experience it before I share them. This is because in the past I have read lots of books with such titles before and none of them are effective.

Most of the time I encounter people so eager to belittle, unfairly criticise, humiliate and gave me sarcastic remarks. I am a little surprise I do not receive negative comments from my topic on "Why I hate babies". If it were on person to person level, people will straight instantly attack me, "Why hate babies, what harm have babies done to anyone?". As it is in the blog, nobody bother to attack me.

A while ago, i read from the NST online that 80,000 Malaysian may be infected with H1N1. This figure is a very alarming and scaring. Could this be the beginning sympton of human extinction. Time shall tell.

On the Star online earthquake rock Sumatra, tremor felt in KL and Penang. So far in my life I have never felt any tremor or shake due to earthquake even during Tsunami 2005 times. My spiritual teacher explained me that I was sort of "protected" from unnecessary "threat"

Fear of Disease

My fear of the current H1N1 has led me to eat more fruits especially coconut water. In my small town where I reside I heard that there are 2 hospital staff died today. Many people are wearing mask. I cannot blog long tonight because the light in my room has blow out.

Babies and why I hate them

OMG, i may not agree with many people. I hate babies.

1. They are little devils grows up to be a monster.
2. They are just like hypocrites, pretending to be this, to be that.
3. Some are even very bossy just like real bosses.
4. Some are so demanding and so difficult to pleased.
5. When they shit, it mess up everywhere and dirty the hands that clean it.
6. They are very irritating with their hands simply take/grab and spoilt people's things.
7. They are nuisance in the sense that so heavy to carry around.
8. They just like little mammals, the by product of one couple's vices.
9. Some are so ugly to look at especially those with small tilted eyes and flat face. The most disgusting ones are the obesity one. URG!!
10. Each time whenever I see them i feel like want to wallop and squeeze them to death.

Well, can't help so, not everybody likes the same things. Everybody's taste is different. I prefer male children to female children anyway.

Modern Versions vs. Traditional Older Versions

I like these few phrases . They are :

1. Older version
If you ever encounter any preachers and/or relatives or friends were to tell you. "Follow what I say but do not follow what I do".

Please reply them with the new version

"Whatever you say, you will first do it and show others, and then you will speak about it."

2. Older version

No pain , no gain.

Modern verson.

No effort, no gain.

3. Older version

Forget the past, let go.

Modern version.

Just like when you want to leave any where, you have to turn your back on the things that you want to leave behind.

Yoghurt - Container

Dutch Lady yoghurt is selling at RM1.29 /140 gm tub.

4 tubs yoghurt one container free. So far I have collected all the four colours.
They are so colourful and nice to look at.

Online diary - 8/8/09

Doubts, suspicion, discontent, dishearten, tiredness, confusion and stress are the norm of the days. Tell me, if there is anyone who is not feeling any one of the eight adjectives. I have all the eight types of those feeling to the extent that I cannot update my blog daily.

Theoretically it is very easy to talk about, "Not to be serious, let go, forget the past, bla , bla, etc." These are bullshits. It is never easy to disregard our feelings let alone eliminate or get rid out those feelings. Meditation teachers claim meditation can assist in this aspect. I am in doubt now, hehe. Likewise any motivational speakers can give you list of ideas and advices and they are all not easy to practise.

Two of my married friends confess that they prefer not get married, cos they are not very satisfy with their married life. One of them is due to financial reasons, another is because of jealousy between the spouse and his family.

A few days ago I was shouted angrily by another so called friend.

Me say: " Wow these few days you look very radiant, heard that a relationship is blooming"

Troy say (pseudonym of course) : "You shut up la, don't spread anything, don't tell anyone. See I never bother with anyone affairs".

Me say : "Ok, ok, i don't see nor know anything,"

What a fucking friend, never give me face completely, scolded me like hell. I was only joking. The truth is that this married man is seen sitting very closely, touching another lady who is also married at a restaurant. They are both married yet continue to have affair secretly.

Somebody saw it, and informed me. What a scandal. Dare to indulge, yet scared people comment. No balls and unreasonable man. Well this is typical example of a man in conflict with his inner self. The world has turned very dirty in all aspect.

Cocoa Bread

Baking is bread is simple with bread machine;

Ingredients:
340 gm/12 oz warm milk
55 gm butter
1 egg
60 gm sugar
30 gm cocoa powder
1/2 tsp salt
425 gm bread flour
2 1/2 tsp dry yeast

Place all ingredients except cocoa powder into the bread machine. At the end of 2nd knead cycle add cocoa powder. Bread is ready in the next 3 hrs.

Yoghurt

OMG, Why has it to be so URGH!. Extremely sour and smelly. I hate yoghurt and I force myself to eat it because it is a healthy food. In this case this is really "OMG". Why are there some people can fancy yoghurt. Hmmmm, well one man's meat is another man's poison. It is never easy to finish this small cup of yoghurt. Can't think of a way to acquire a liking for yoghurt.

It taste so much like creamy vinegar.

Thoughts for today -- 26/7/09

Extremely tired during the weekends. I feel that I have not enough sleep. Tired is the accurate word to describe how I feel these few days. This could possibly be due age catching up. Or maybe Vitamin B is not sufficient. Vitamin B Complex. I am so easily exhausted. Can't imagine how tired those fussy people who want every items of theirs to arrange in 90 degrees straight. Some even mop their floor daily. As well as those who work 2 or 3 jobs per day. They must have indirectly abuse their body and energy. Or possibly they sacrifice their personal time.

I ate a small portion of porridge today after receiving one email regarding the danger of consuming too much rice. As rice after digest will transform to glucose. Ate more vegetables now onwards to compensate for the lesser amount of carb.

Read about the elderly who are abandoned by their kids in the paper. Well, internally in my heart I don't feel anything much. Because I remember very well, many people who have children are very arrogant and normally passed cynical remarks to people who have no children like me. And I am not sure whether those old folks have ever abused their children before when they were young. Can't help, some children do hold grudge and take revenge. After all this is a fucking cunning wicked world. This got to be happened. Pre-destined.

"I warn you so,............."

"What the heck, you are pregnant?, I told you not to sleep around before marriage, didn't I?" my mum scolded me. I began to sob. I told my parent I didn't expect it to turned out this way, we love each other very much.

"I told you so many times, never, never involve in sex prior getting married. Why are you so disobedient? Why er? Why?" my mum keep nagging and scolding.

Peter was killed in a car accident. It was not a rainy day. Yet his car was involved in a collision with a lorry and he was killed. Poor Peter, he died at a young age of 28. We had discussed about marriage. He was my ideal man. Nobody else can replace Peter in my heart.

"Now I don't care how you feel, tomorrow early in the morning you better go for an abortion. What is the point of carrying a dead man's baby. The fucking idiot in your stomach will not be able to get his or her birth certificate registered." That were my parents words more than ten years ago. I cried uncontrollably several days. I was three months pregnant then. I was in a big dilemma. However, the next few days, with a heavy heart I had an abortion. Nobody comforted me, not even my siblings, relatives or friends. In fact all of them told me that I deserve to undergo this torment. Years passed by and the whole story was never mentioned again.

If I had stronger will power to keep the baby, he or she will be 15 years old by now. Those were the days. Looking back things have changed so much now. People accepted so well sleeping around prior marriage and without marriage like nobody's business nowadays.

P.S. Inspired by the news I read in the paper. The conversation and the event never took place actually. Just a work of fiction.

10 Commandments for success in life

Here are ten points gleaned from the writings of Sri Swami Sivananda, which can lead any individual towards success in their chosen path in life. These guidelines have the power to benefit you - physically, mentally and spiritually.

1. Have a simple and unassuming manner of life.

2. Live not to eat, but eat to live.

3. Bear no envy. Commit no slander. Speak no falsehood. Practise no deceit. Harbor no malice. You will be ever joyful, happy and peaceful.

4. Righteousness is the rule of life. Lead a virtuous life. Strictly adhere to Dharma. Human life is not human without virtues. Study the lives of saints and draw inspiration from them.

5. Cultivate a melting heart, the giving hand, the kindly speech, the life of service, equal vision, and impartial attitude. Your life will, indeed, be blessed.

6. Lead a regulated life. Take hold of each day as if it were the last day, and utilize every second in prayer, meditation and service. Let your life become a continuous sacrifice to God.

7. Live in the present. Forget the past. Give up hopes of the future.

8. Understand well the meaning of life, and then start the quest.

9. Life is thy greatest gift. Utilize every second profitably.

10. Success often comes to those who dare and act. It seldom comes to the timid.

However, I really have doubts if they are still applicable at this present era of year 2009. Big doubt, not small doubt.

Sources : http://hinduism.about.com/od/gurussaints/a/success.htm

Other links which may be of interest are :

Why Meditation?15 Minutes Of Meditation Each Day Will Dramatically Improve Your Lifewww.silvaultramindsystem.com

God Can Help YouLearn From This True Life Story A Prayer That Can Change Your Lifewww.LifesGreatestQuestion.com

Understanding the WordBreak through traditional teachings to truth and the word of life.www.hallvworthington.com

Rambling on the road

On my way home this evening, the traffic was very heavy although it is Tuesday and not a public holiday. The road was bloody jam. Even within such a short distance of about 3 km I have to wait in the jam for nearly 1 hour. In the car my mind goes wandering, should I be thinking, "Wah, I must be lucky staying in a prosperous country, surrounded by all so many vehicles. Very few people are walking on the road. Bicycles are not seen too. Unlike in some other countries eg India where the road is less filled with such big new cars". Oh, no it is not easy to bluff myself, the truth is that I am a poor person surrounded by rich people everywhere along the road. The road was so pack. The population keep increasing. Will the world one day be over populated?. How is the end time like? What and how it will be like say in another hundred years time? The prediction of the so-called "End of the world" keep on dragging and postponing. In my childhood time most of the road in this same town was normally quiet and relax. Those were the days.

Can & Bottle Openers

Unknowingly I have twelve can / bottle openers. Did a stock count on my kitchen accessories a few days ago. I did not buy all of them. Some are passed down. Some are as free gifts. Wish they were something of more monetary value.

I do not know how to use all of them. Anyway I decided to keep them all just for keeping sake. To throw or to declutter everything in sight is also a subtle form of bad habit.

A day of a typical Sunday - 19/7/09

I woke up around at 7:00 am. As I am already 1 hour late for spiritual class I don't feel like going to spiritual class anymore, thus I continue to sleep. Within that 2 hour of sleep from 7:00 am till 7:00 am I have negative dream. I dreamt that my house's porch area was cut away due to make way to more wider road. I felt terribly sad, so sad until I woke up around 9:00 am. I have kept tracked that if I ever continue to sleep after I woke up most time I will have negative dreams be it around 5 am or any time morning.

So as usual after cleaning my body I went to wet market. One of the items I bought was 12 nos. of lemons. The vegetable seller asked me if I am going to do fruit enzyme, I told him. No, I am going to cook arteries blockage concoction. He told me he has heard about it and asked me to write down the recipes and passed to him. I have no difficulty of breathing , neither do I have any health problem, this is just one of the precautions. This is my 3rd batch. My first batch was cooked on Mar 29, 2009 (recipes included).

It is nearly 10:30 am when I reached home. I prepare breakfast by frying 1 plate of soya bean noodles. Naturally with drinks, today I choose coffee.

I decided no rice today. Boil sweet potato, potato, fruits for lunch and spaghetti for dinner. Since mangosteens and rambutans are in season and cheap today, I bought each type 1 kg. Rambutans are selling at RM2/kg and mangosteens are selling at RM3/kg today. They cannot keep long therefore just bought 1 kg each. Once I start eating rambutans seems cannot stop till finished. I like the sweetness of rambutans.

During the afternoon I prepare the concoction. Preparation takes nearly 2 hours. Also prepare the syrup for mooncake skin. Syrup has to be prepred months earlier. Mooncake Festival will be coming in 2 - 3 months times. This takes me another 1 and half hours. After that I take shower and do some washing.

In the evening, I have tea time of fruits and lemon juice.

At 6:10 pm, I went for meditation in the evening to make up for the for the lost class in the morning. I foresee as long as I live I will go on with meditation because meditation and spiritual class suits sorrowful yet nice person like me, hehe. In my circumstance I need meditation to keep me going alive. It gives the soothing effect of being alive, to be connected to the Cosmic Energy. It gives wellness to the mind.

Watering my plants. Hope that my plants and herbs may grow well. Sweeping also not done today, ironing clothes also postpone. Resting also not yet included. See how time passes extremely fast during public holidays and weekends. Left with just short period of time for me to surf some of my favourite websites and updating my blog.

Cannot Die

Whenever I look at this old tree trunk with grass grown in it in the middle brings me some old memories. The memories of the Chinese saying, "Chi kee chow chit tiam hor" in Hokkien. It simply means for each strand of grass sure to be one drop of dew. Therefore one can sure never starve to death. This is similar to the Malay version simpulan bahasa, "Ulat di bawah batu masih boleh hidup." I simply love this idiom. In difficult times such as now where certain management tend to in almost every conversation indicating sacking people. This particular idiom serves as soothing the mind as not to be afraid. We can still survive. We shall not be starving to death as indicate by certain egoistic proud management. Like the grass it stays alive forever even during drought season.

1 Hour Quick Lunch Menu

As I am on leave today, I have the pleasure to do my own cooking. As the pictures depict I cooked mixed grains brown rice, steam lady fingers, fried ginger tau foo with tomato and celery and burdock root soup. My Mandarin speaking friend called Burdock as "New Phang". I have them done including cooking and washing up within 1 hour.

The cost of the ingredients are about RM4.50 (for both lunch and dinner). I have enough quantity to eat for dinner and lunch. Assuming I were to eat outside just for lunch alone at "Economy Rice" stall ; 1 plate of white rice RM1.00, soup 1 bowl RM2.00 (dilute too), 1 small plate of tau foo RM2.50, 4 nos of lady fingers RM 2.00. Total price RM7.50 only for lunch at coffee shop stall.

Carrot and sesame muffins

Ingredients
375 gm self raising flour,
1/2 tsp bicarbonate soda
1 tsp ground mixed spice
90 g castor sugar
1 large carrot, grated
4 tbsp sesame seeds
170 gm sultanas
100 g natural yoghurt
1cup (250 ml) fresh milk
3 tbsp butter
2 eggs, lightly beaten

1. Preheat oven to 200 C. Into a large bowl, sift flour, bicarbonate soda and mixed spice. Add sugar, carrot, sesame seeds and mix to combine.
2. In another bowl, place yoghurt, milk, butter and eggs and whisk to combine. Stir yoghurt mixture into flour mixture and mix until just combined. Spoon mixture into muffin cups an bake for 20 mins or until muffins are cooked when tested with a skewer. Best serve when warm.

On the bed or on the wood flooring?

Where do you prefer to sleep, on the bed or on the floor with a carpet or thin mattress on the wood flooring.? After testing for a few months I will be sleeping on the wood flooring. This is because I have backache. By lying down my back straight on a hard surface this works like an auto massage. I even discard pillow which suppose to support my head. Head, back where the hunch back is, bum all straight on the floor. It is a wonderful feeling. My backache has minimised. The body feels good. Wish I had started to sleep on the wood floor earlier. Another side benefits of sleeping on the floor is that it is always cooling in harsh hot weather. I do not need fan or aircon with wood flooring.

Declutter, detox the mind

We have read and heard so much of detoxing of our body through special diets to release our bodies from stored toxins. We have also heard of feng shui masters advise us on declutter our home. The more spacious our home is , the easier the chi to flow. Similarly the mind also need needs detoxing. Feelings such as resentment, frustration, enmity and unexpressed anger can become internal poisons that ultimately damage our well beings and quality of life if they are not resolved.

Meditation and spiritual lessons are the methods to assist us to have the inner strength to cope with life. However to gain inner strength through meditation requires a certain period of time. I have not gain mine yet after I have learnt since year Aug 2005. Most probably because I don't practise constantly, the spiritual connection that our mind make with cosmic forces. The more regular and concentrate we are the more inner wisdom within us is acquired.

Life may be considered difficult and complicated or simple and easy depending on how we perceive it to be. It is only a matter of switching or tuning the mind to either which side. We have to let go of our junk and clutter. This applies to material possession in the home, work-related activities, relationships, thoughts and emotions. We are inviting too many distractions into our lives unconsciously through our experiences and others' experiences by our observations. One of my teacher's favourite slogan is "Don't think". What she meant was on a regularly basis we have to identify what is no longer serves a useful purposes. This applies to our personal life and career aspects of our life. This is getting the excess baggage out of our life. Do something every day to make our life less complicated. Refuse to spend time with people or things that are draining our energy, space, time or money. Do not remember or think of the weaknesses of others in our mind. Do not worry about things that might never happen. What if... any mishap happens. Switch off.

W can't change anyone or everything and live in perfect pure world, but learning to cope with the inevitable and be able to handle any situations like a somersault may make a difference.

Just sharing - 7/7/09

It is already past midnight and I haven't sleep. The reason is my sleeping pattern is that sometimes if I miss the 9 something "sleep bus", it will be very late for me to have another sleepy moment. I wonder if there are many people having this kind of sleep pattern like me.

Lately I have been very tired and weak. Too tired to write anything. Even if I write it will be mostly my anger, frustration and hatred. I hate to tell lies therefore I can't write what is not in my heart. I notice many people are having devilish trait. Maybe to others it is a norm, a norm to stay alive. My friend shared with me that he too was very fed up with certain peers character who talked so bad and condemn one contractor. Whereas in front of the contractor he pat and smile with the said contractor, even talk about games as if being old close friends. Just ten minutes ago criticise severely the contractor.

Some even lies and talk nonsense just because their position are higher. No wonder these days people are more prone to illness. I wonder if their thoughts, words and actions are not in alignment, will they ever feel any uneasiness. They talked one thing, do something else, maybe feel another things. One example is, one director boasting to outside people that his organisation is all working harmoniously like a big family. Inside the company, he is abusing verbally and mentally his employees. Internally his heart is condemning the workers for being not hard working enough, not loyal enough, not good enough, not efficient enough.

Nowadays nobody is really pleased with anybody I am sure. Similarly I too not satisfied with anyone in my life though I can assure that I give my passing marks very low. This is inevitable in life. Everybody has flaws including myself.

Prescriptions to stay calm in crisis

Last weekends I have the opportunity to attend a few talks by one yogi from India. As always when i listened to such talk I always get intoxicated. I would have attend it every night if it were held every night.

The methods or prescriptions to remain calm in crisis are :

1. Every morning when we wake up, make the first ten minutes we spend concentrating on one positive affirmation, eg. " I am a peaceful soul" or " I am responsible for my own feelings", etc
(Only each thought per day)

2. Practise one minute pause for at least 8 times a day. During those pause of one minute, reaffirm the morning thought eg "I am a peaceful" or "I am responsible for my own feelings" etc respectively. Those pause can be for eg during 11:00 am, 12:00 pm, 1:00 pm, 2: 00 pm, 3;00 pm till 8 times.

3. During night time, before we fall asleep, as we are resting, roll the scroll of the day. Accept everything as good. Whatever has happen is good. (What may appears to be a mistakes, is a lesson that we have learned and move on) Thanks everyone that we have deal with for the day including those we may have dislike for. Thanks God and good nite .

We are encouraged to try for say 2 - 3 months and see how. Thereafter other things being equal, we shall be able to move forward smoothly without stress.

Maid's Ban - So what

Talking about maid ban, I was thinking if I ever can afford to hire maid, if my salary were RM20K per month, I will still not be hiring maid. The reasons are :

1. I do not feel safe with any person around me. It is a very high risk. I have read of cases where the maid murder the employer once she got to irritated with the employer. One never knows if they may not like us through our behaviour or mannerism. A lot of them also mix urine in their boss's beverages. Some burn dried menstruates and let their employer to eat it through cooking in the food. I don't trust them to prepare meals for me. I always remember the saying, "It is much easier to avoid external 'ghost' than internal 'ghost' which stays around you".

2. There are cases where they inform their so-called boyfriends of our time table and schedule and assist in robbery and theft.

3. Some elope away with their boyfriends after a while . This is not too bad if they had not also gone off with our cash or jewellery.

4. Some hit the very weak elderly while the younger sons or daughters are out for work. The maid hit the elderly as the way to vent out their boredom and some simply because of jealousy, laziness and unreasonableness.

5. I think majority have seen before, the video where the maid and hit kicked the toddler as if the toddler is a ball.

6. I also heard of cases where they don't rinse properly the utensils, clothes. I cannot stand those lackadaisical attitude.

So don't you think it will be much stress free without a maid then with a maid. What's wrong with a little bit messy in our place. We can clean it as and when we have the mood and time.

I just talk for the sake of updating my blog tonight. However they are not without sincerity from my heart.

Streamyx is good enough

On Sun 21/6/09 morning while I was watching my plants in the garden, a malay man came to my house. He said, "Cik, kami ada menerima lapuran daripada cik mengenai masaalah streamyx." "Oh, I am a bit shock, I haven't inform anyone that on Saturday night I have lodged a report with streamyx regarding slow browsing and line keeps down and interupt very frequently." I said "Ya, memang betul, tetapi betulkah kamu dari streamyx, sila tolong tunjukkan kad pengenalan dari streamyx." He showed me his Telekom Sreamyx card. Luckily it was a genuine one. I allowed him to come in to check my modem and computer.

Upon checking he told me my modem a older version one is not compatible with the server at their new substation. But anyhow he assured me that they will try again to configure the compatibility between the main server at streamyx substation in my area. If that be unsucessful I will have to change my modem to ADSL streamyx modem. I said "OK, I shall wait and see then."

Today, Tues 23/6/09, one of the streamyx man called me up again. He said, "Cik, kami sudah program di server kami, cuba cik cek speed komputer cik,". As at that time I was in the office working, I couldn't check. After I reached home I tested my browsing speed now is downloading speed 681 kbps, and uploading speed is 271 kbps. Well, I can smile with an appreciation smile. I will not want to risk changing to other broad band vendor. This is my sixth year using streamyx and so far it has never disappoint me. Hopefully streamyx will continue to sustain its efficiency and prompt action always.

Am I living the way I should?

Am I living my life in accordance with the teachings I follow, whether it be Christianity, Hinduism, Islam , Buddhism, Judaism or whatever. Am I adopting spirituality in my dealings with others? Spirituality does not mean sitting in a church or temples for long hours per day.

Spirituality means a life with values based on truth rather than the acquisition of objects: a life in which I can understand and appreciate the importance of developing good qualities within myself: divine virtues such as tolerance, co-operation, honest, etc a life in which I can communicate and relate to others with a smile in my eyes and happiness in my voice: My aim should be to make the best of the life i am living and to be honest with myself and truthful in my dealings with others.

This is what I have been advised and taught. Naturally there is a gap between reality and the ideal . My own self assessment and evaluation is ............... I got to think over it to make a better accurate judgment. Anyway variance sure got one, who don't.

Probable penis evolution and its consequences

Tonight is cooling. As I have nothing much to do, my mind keeps wondering. This time I am thinking of the last few days news of the young boy without penis. I have no intention of making a joke out of him. Never anything like this.

Just wondering, if in future there are any more cases such as this without penis, then possibly this is man's natural evolution. When such kids grow up, they will not have any sex intercourse the normal way. Penis becomes extinct. Then there will be no more sex intercourse. Copulation will be the thing of the past. Fucking becomes history. No more xxxxx websites. Prostitutes also need to change profession. Aids, HIV, herpes, syphilis etc stop to spread. Babies at that time possibly born through other non vice methods. Haha, this is just my fucking thought for tonight, weird imagination for tonight. Good night laugh to you all.

Feeling Proof

We have heard of water-proof camera, watch, fool-proof machine, living- proof. termite-proof, etc What I want to have or to be is feeling proof. Feeling proof means more than not susceptible to feeling sensitive. Feeling proof is going beyond all sorts of feeling eg, worry, concern, angry, upset, sad, missing, yearning, craving, pity etc. I was told I can acquired this through meditation. It is still a long long way for me to achieve this level. Still learning, and making effort. The benefits of feeling proof is that one shall not be affected by any outcome, any news, and happenings. Stress will be the matter of the past then.

I think this should be my aim and objective ; feeling proof. If I ever ahieve it, I will still be appear loving and friendly from the outside. Internally everything is of no concern to me anymore. Sound cold and harsh but it is very beneficial to the beholder. I believe many people are already having this skill but I am just start to learn. It means come what may, what the heck. One blog which I have read (can't remember the name) he commented on what the heck people keep writing /talking about happiness. Why bother chasing of happiness, shouldn't it be as it is. He lamented something about can't stand people especially women keep harping on happiness. This expression indicate that this man already achieve the "feeling proof" stage either knowling or un-knowling by him. He is very lucky. He is already has "feeling proof".

The benefits of feeling proof are many. By being feeling proof one is harder to contract diseases such as cholesterol too. One become unshakeable and immovable in turbulent circumstances. Calm and cool in a chaotic peacelessness environment. How I wish I can faster achieve it.

High Blood Cholesterol

Having a high cholesterol level myself makes me read everything about cholesterol. What upset me is that my medical check up showed I have higher cholesterol compared to last year. So sad that after coming home, after having my lunch I fall asleep for nearly 3 - 4 hours. One thing general hospital is very good, is that as it is not in business for profits, they discourage people from taking medicine for lowering cholesterol. The reasons are in the long term these medicine may have side effects in damaging one's kidney and liver.

Hypercholesterolaemia or increase in cholesterol is mainly a digestive problem caused by rich foods such as fried food, excessive consumption of milk and its products like ghee, butter, and cream, white flour, sugar, cakes, pastries, biscuits, cheese, ice-cream as well as meat, fish and eggs. Other causes of increase in cholesterol are irregularity in habits, smoking and drinking alcohol.

Stress has been found to be a major cause of increased level of cholesterol. Adrenaline and cortison are both released in the body under stress. This, in turn, produces a fat metabolising reaction. Adrenal glands of executive type aggressive persons produce more adrenaline than the easy going men. Consequently they suffer six to eight times more heart attack than the relaxed men.

The Cure
This can be achieved by improving the diet and changing the life style. Foods rich in cholesterol and saturated fats, which lead to increase in low density one (LDL) level, should be reduced to the minimum. Cholesterol-rich foods are eggs, organ meats and most cheese. Butter, bacon, beef, whole milk, virtually all food of animal origin as well as two vegetable oils, namely coconut and palm, are high in saturated fasts and these should be replaced by polysaturated fats such as corn, sunflower, soyabeans and sesame oil which tend to lower the level of LDL. There are monosaturated fats such as olive and peanuts oils which have more or less neutral effect on the LDL level.

The amount of fibre in the diet also influences the cholesterol levels and LDL can be lowered by taking diets rich in fibres. The most significant sources of dietary fibre are unprocessed wheat bran, whole cereals such as wheat, rice, barley, rye legumes such as potato, carrot, beet and turnips; fruits like mango and guava and green vegetables such as cabbage, lady's finger, lettuce and celery. Oat bran is especially beneficial in lowering LDL cholesterol.

Lecithin, also a fatty food substance and the most abundant of the phospholipids, is highly beneficial in case of increase in cholesterol level. It has the ability to break up cholesterol into small particles which can be easily handled by the system. With sufficient intake of lecithin, cholesterol cannot build up against the walls of the arteries and veins. It also increases the production of bile acids made from cholesterol, thereby reducing its amount in the blood. Egg yolk, vegetables oils, whole grain cereals, soyabeans and unpasteurised milk are rich sources of lecithin. The cells of the body are also capable of synthesizing it as needed, if several of the B vitamins are present.

Person with high blood cholesterol levels should drink at least 8 to 10 glasses of water everyday as regular drinking of water stimulates the excretory activity of the skin and kidneys. This in turns facilitates elimination of excessive cholesterol from the system, Regular drinking of coriander water also helps lower blood cholesterol as it is a good diuretic and stimulates the kidneys. It is prepared by boiling dry seeds of coriander and straining the decoction after cooling.

Regular exercise also plays an important role in lowering the LDL cholesterol and in raising the level of protective HDL (high density one). Jogging, brisk walking, swimming, bicycling and playing badminton are excellent forms of exercise.

Sources : Nature Cure by H K Bakhru, India

Getting Fat

For unknown reason I have gained 2 kg within 1 day. I am slightly overweight now. I think I should skip dinner or maybe just have beverage for dinner.
I weigh 52 kg today. According to my height, I should be around 47kg to 48 kg. I have 5 kg to get rid of. This is not an easy task.
My plan are ;
1. Do leg up exercise minimum 10 times per day
2. Reduce the portion of my food.
3. Skip dinner.
4. Reduce carbohydrate intake.
5. Brisk walking.
6. Start physical yoga exercise

Yam Rice

Thinking of yam rice as I have not eaten it for quite some time. Therefore I cook yam rice today. I take the recipes from http://kuali.com/recipes by Amy Beh. I modify a bit by omitting dried shrimp. The reason being I am learning to eat pure food now. Does my yam rice looks good? It taste good to me. I eat all for lunch and dinner.